Wednesday, October 10, 2012

The doors, the hallways and "Suruchi is back to blogging".

It's been almost a year since I wrote something here. I've missed writing. Today I read my own blog and the first thing I realized was how inflicted such agonizing gyaan upon you guys all the time, and you all still read my blog. Respect! (BTW I love you a lot more when you comment on my blog posts. Really.)

I read my last post, where I said I wanted to move on from my life then and was hopeful of a change. Guess what? It didn't really go that way. Instead of moving forward with my life, I remained stuck. Or worse, I even went backwards at times. So here I am, shouting out loud, that life really SUUUUUCKED the whole of last year. It was a phase rocky as hell, and it ended on a worse note! 

(Of course you all knew I wasn't fine. I wasn't calling you, forwarding irritating messages, disturbing your inner peace as much as possible and poking you on social media sites to like my photos, albums and comments. See! THAT'S the extent to which things went wrong. I went quiet! But don't continue with your hope, I might be returning back to normal. I am just saying...your Utopian comfortable life had to end eventually!)

Having said that, there is such a wonderful ring to that sentence where I said that the phase ended on a worse note. Simply because there is a term in it that stands as a solution to the entire problem - "Ended". 

An end always is followed with a new beginning. You might not be able to see or experience that new beginning for quite some time. But the moment you finish the ongoing phase, you give a chance to the universe to present you the next plan that is in stores for you. How pleasant, how optimistic and how very re-assuring! *Applause* 

Keeping the sunny, optimistic banter aside, we all need to have a reality check in place. Ending things is in your hands. But ending it right, is what matters. Having a new beginning is something you must wait for, but letting the right beginning happen to you, is what will work. 

Putting it across by saying, "When one door shuts, another opens" is 'ideal, butter scotch' smooooooth! (Oh yeah, I love butter scotch ice cream more than I love chocolate.) But then, the real life comes with long waiting periods in the hallways. You will end up realizing that the hallway is a suffocating place. You will get lured into entering any door that opens up for you, just to escape that area where walls seem to be closing in on you all the time. You might stand there and keep wondering if a door will ever open up. In this situation, it's also possible that you would start knocking on that door which shut behind you and try going back in because it was a familiar place to be in. Man these hallways are a bitch! 

That's why, the moment that door shuts, lock it from your side and throw away the keys. That's the only way to put an end to something: Never looking back. When waiting in the hall way, you will get lonely. Don't feel afraid of the dark, just pick up the phone and ask your friends to come and give you company as you wait. When the doors start opening, take your time to evaluate. About wondering whether the right door will ever open or not...you're expecting too  much...few things just don't have a solution. Reality can be nasty, suck it up.

To make your waiting periods less cumbersome, enter the hallways clutter free. Make sure your exit from that door was free of guilt, frustrations and unfinished business. Else it will get lonely, hopeless, desperate and quite frankly, you won't be able to handle it. 

I have been in this hall way for quite some time now. And I am glad I didn't go for any of the wrong doors which opened up for me. I am happy I could eventually lock the door which had shut behind me and I am satisfied that I stand here having committed no wrong, having no burdens on my mind. (As you read this, imagining my solemn, smiling face with that angelic halo over my head might make this gibber gabber far too appealing!) 

All said and done, now that I am here, I have had this enlightening moment. I introspected and realized how I could just get inspired by the bashing life gives me. I can help my fellow beings. (My blog reaches 500 FB friends and about 20 something of those who stay online on gtalk.) I can write about these high-end, spiritual as well as practical (Yeah, I can say that, IT'S MY BLOG!) thoughts and learning...and put them all here in this blog. All I need to do next is, send this link to all of you, request (not pester) you to read it, and then humbly await your opinion.(No threats this time, really.)