Almost 28 years of being around...

Two more days and I shall be completing 28 years of being born. This year, I want to have a wish list for my birthday. For what I want my life to be like in the coming years. At least a couple of years. Because I am sure, two years down the line, I will be posting a note titled: "It's all downhill from here. :( " 

Will cross that depressing bridge when it comes. As of today, there isn't just one wish that I will make when blowing the candles on my birthday cake on August 21. :) I know someone up there loves me, and as they say, all you have to do is ask. So here it goes!

Putting my interests first.

• I need to understand that my own interests deserve to be taken care of as much as others'. I wish I can do that and gift myself a better life. 

Pleasant surprises.

• I wished for life to surprise me a lot last time. I need to be more specific. I wish life throws some pleasant surprises my way. 

I wish the losers stop finding me.

• Yes, God was watching a cheesy chick flick when he was working on the ideas around my love life. And yes, He snoozed around the part where the lady finds her Mr. Right after dealing with a string of wrong ones. I shall cut Him some slack and make my peace with the fact that the Mr. Right for me doesn't exist to be found. But then, I want the idiots to stop happening to me. I can do without them. So God, be cool. No more sending the stinkers my way. 

Dance, music, life.

• Listening to soundtracks that take me to another world, singing the songs close to my heart, learning various dance forms, or just getting up and dancing all my problems away to my favorite songs. I wish this passion and the spirit continues. 

Words, expressions, feelings. 

• Be it coming across beautifully written words that change my world in a moment or finding the right ones to express myself when I need them the most, I hope words continue being my close friends as always.

Meet new people.

• I wish I can keep meeting new people all the time who keep bringing fresh perspectives and newer horizons for my thoughts to grow.

Closures.

• I want answers. And I want closures. 

The last point also gives a closure to this list. I hope for good times ahead. :)

Words.

I am a person of words. I am the most expressive person you might ever come across. My friends, my family members, or simply people I grow even a little fond of, know this. I express. Even when in my most basic elements, I am the one who always has  the most appropriate things to say. I never fail words. Words never fail me.

And yet, I have this strange relationship with expressions and words where I feel they restrict me and my universe. Every time I tried telling it out, using words...to someone, I knew it got a little artificial. I molded the words for someone else.  Knowing that someone else is going to read or listen to those words or expressions, I did restructure it multiple times in my head. It's a transaction, at the end. That's why, it's not completely honest.

Your real feelings aren't reflected in the spoken words, the expressed feelings and the public posts. If you want to check what you've really wanted to say, or have wished for...go and read those email drafts that you never finished, those posts you never published, those messages you never sent, those letters you never posted. Those are the things you actually wanted from life. Those are the times when you felt so overwhelmed with emotions and their resulting effects, that it scared you. Words failed you every time you felt the strongest of emotions. Your real life story lies there, hidden in between those unspoken lines.

Few of us out there experienced the magic where the stuff they couldn't muster the courage to speak out, got heard or understood. I have come to know of a few fairy tales. I think, they are extremely lucky souls. I hear they are very happy.